so here i am sitting at home. alone. man i even cleaned my room.was getting late (early morning tomorrow). she wasnt feeling well either, although i guess that's partially my fault (although i still maintain it takes two pairs of lips to kiss :p)

anyway its just casual. thats it. besides, she's obviously still in love with the guy. despite all the bitching and complaining. why else would she still be so insistant in trying hard.

i think she's trying too hard, and he just isn't. theres only so much you can do, a relationship is supposed to be a two way thing, isnt it.

anyway i'm staying neutral and .. well .. trying to keep my mouth shut, althoughi'm so damned opinionated that i cant of course :)

asked her why she liked me, she said (after some thought .. yeah thanks babe :p), its cuz i'm laid back and just cool with things and go with the flow. yeah. i am. so compartmentalize and screw all that emotional, am-i-falling shit. she's fun to hang out with and do stuff with and do stuff to. she's an attractive, intelligent young woman that I wanna ravish on a daily basis. whats the big deal.

oh yeah. put up those shelves. right in the corner over my head. hope they hold, else i'll wake up with a mouthful of plant dirt.